Tame the untameable


Living inside your head is like being captivated in a prison. You can’t get out of the bars even if you want to. You feel as if all the conversations happen in the head and are sorted out there.

H.P. Lovecraft says that we all live on a placid island of ignorance as we aren’t able to correlate all the ongoings in the mind.
This, he considers to be the most merciful thing of the human mind. The contents seem incoherent as one finds no relation between one thought and another.
Sometimes there is a relation yet it’s funny how you relate an objective situation or a fleeting thought to your personal life and feelings.

Brain to man watching TV: 'Since you won't be needing me for a while, I'm going to run a few errands.'
Suddenly you’re thinking about your favourite movie and why you like it. From there on you start thinking about how you miss having the kind of life the protagonist enjoys in the film. How you wished you were lucky enough to be a crusader of a cause you believe like the heroine in the movie and you are successful in making an impact as well.
David Hume, In his A Treatise of Human Nature described the mind as a heap of different perceptions, which we endow with a simplicity and identity just to benefit our understanding of it.

“A man should keep his little brain attic stocked with all the furniture that he is likely to use, and the rest he can put away in the lumber-room of his library, where he can get it if he wants it.”

SIR ARTHUR CONAN DOYLE in The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes gives the best advice as to how to declutter the mind which is always running on an overdrive.
Treat your mind like an orchard which when manured produces the most delicious fruits. A cultivated mind gives rise to pure and noble thoughts. Little bit of pruning could just be an exercise for it. Sometimes when the mind is out of focus, train yourself to just be in the moment and concentrate on the thing which you’re doing or the situation that you’re a part of no matter however boring it seems to you.
When you rein in those skittering thoughts and just cut it down to the ones on which you can act upon or aren’t that overwhelming, you wouldn’t find your mind coming in the way of your yet-to-be-done tasks.
Don’t let the mind be an imperious boss. Bring it down to serve you like a caterer. You’re the manager and have to supervise the way it thinks and behaves. If it’s directionless, teach it to follow one path that may serve you.

Hatred : a spontaneous emotion

“Every instinct that is found in any man is in all men. The strength of the emotion may not be so overpowering, the barriers against possession not so insurmountable, the urge to accomplish the desire less keen. With some, inhibitions and urges may be neutralized by other tendencies. But with every being the primal emotions are there. All men have an emotion to kill; when they strongly dislike some one they involuntarily wish he was dead. I have never killed any one, but I have read some obituary notices with great satisfaction.”
Clarence Darrow, The Story of My Life


Is it natural to hate and want someone dead ? Like you cant stand a person and you wished they never existed. I have been in that phase before and now have outgrown attachment to hatred, resentment. It only affects you mentally and not the other person. No one cares if you like them or not. They still are the same way. No one is obliged to change for you. Once you realise this, perhaps you would stop wanting to make people behave a certain way and give into your standard of being.

I have had really negative thoughts about few people. When I say negative, I mean really inhuman thoughts about them. I wished the worst thing should happen to them on this earth. Then I realised, all that monstrosity was within me and not them. It is my importance given to them that made them all the more annoying than they actually were.
What if I was indifferent to their existence ? Just treat them like passers-by instead of some antagonists in my life. Isn’t my way of looking at them causing me more irritation and making me despise them ?
That was what I told myself and of course it took hell lot of time.
Eventually I lost the energy to hate anyone. I still have strong likes and dislikes but just that I am able to bear more people in a cordial way. Not that I was ever rude on face to anyone unless they did something to me. But I was mentally cursing them if their mere presence was poisonous to my well-being.

I guess maybe that is called emotional maturity or maybe evolving to a better state of mind.
But I’m glad I had these wanting-to-kill-someone palpable sensations before as it cleansed my soul. Now if I look back, I find it so silly.
We all should admit the murderer in our hearts as no one is immune to crime.
The only thing that differentiates between us normal people and those commit crimes is a presence of mind with conscience.



We all are butcherers at heart just pretending to be this noble soul who wants everyone’s good and upkeep.
Do yourself a favour. Face the real you and that actually makes you a better human being not by overlooking your natural primeval feelings. You can only become pure-hearted when you value the filth stored in your soul. You need yo get rid of it by actually being that ‘bad’ person for sometime and venting those emotions.

A rotating shaft makes my night..

When you switch on a ceiling fan, the stationary armature gets into action.

The whirring sound of the fan makes me feel so in-the-moment and peaceful. The peace that is usually elusive when I try to calm my mind comes upon me when I shift my focus to the revolving fan in my room as I lie down and watch it.
Staring at a revolving fan is quite meditative and kind of brings you to the present. You forget all your worries and anxieties. You and the fan share such a serene equation. It is actually better than you staring at a blank wall. I just noticed how the blades of a fan become so invisible when it rotates at the maximum and swiftest speed.
The blades however are visible in the picture below which I clicked a snap from where I was on the bed.


The picture mode in camera captured the static.

When a propeller is in motion, the image of the blades (forming a uniform disk color ) is not resolved by the retina.
So it will certainly not be processed by your brain as the movement is too rapid.

I just read in quora.com that a rotating fan is in equilibrium between the electromagnetic torque from the motor and frictional torque from the air.

Atleast this electrical appliance has a balance unlike me. My mind keeps spinning and weaving thoughts while I fail to grasp them.

Life: ‘A handful of dust’

Leo Tolstoy, put forth his sensation of existential meaninglessness in an appropriate phrase known as ‘Life Arrest’.
If life was your home and if you were bound to it without knowing how to escape the senselessness and aimlessness that grows upon you, then it’s akin to house arrest.


You would despise life as if you were grounded and want to know the meaning behind why you do what you do.
When meaning in life dissolves into dreary activities and you go on carrying on with doing whatever you do no matter whether you find sense in it or not. Then one day you feel a stoppage of life as if you don’t know how you’re going to live on and what you are going to do in future..
These moments of perplexity make you feel distasteful about life and suicidal as you see no sense in wanting to live. The ground on which you stand is crumbling and you figure out that there is nothing beneath to support yourself and stand on. That solid foundation has given away to ruins.
When the things you do like your work, raising a family, earning or pursuing your education abroad hold no interest value or bear no usefulness to you, you’re in the phase of existential neurosis.


Though many perspire in work, few find aspiration. That’s what Benjamin Wolfman remarked when people who are employed are hard working yet find nothing to look forward to in their jobs.
Why is meaninglessness equated to illness ? Anything that inhibits fullness and growth is same as being sick.
What is neurosis ? It isn’t some clinically definable condition rather it’s the suffering of a soul which hasn’t dawned upon meaning.


Even in concentration camps those who survived were the ones who saw meaning in life or had a sense of purpose. The ones unlikely to survive lacked that essence to continue with their lives. When you lack a guideline to steer your life, you got to create it instead of looking for it or wanting it to capture you.
We human beings constitute ourselves, our world and the situation in which we enter into. So what if there is no grand design in the universe ? An individual can create his own sense of purpose to aspire towards something that sparks his soul.


Cosmic meaning says that human life is governed by some incomprehensible pattern though overall coherent.
Terrestrial meaning is easier to find as it’s more practical and needs an immediate sense of self and direction in life. It depends on one’s inspiration and goals one has to apply to oneself.
An environmentalist feels like he ought find a solution to climate change and make it feasible. He places his faith in carbon sequestration (capturing Carbon Dioxide for long-term storage) and creates awareness about it.
He is guided by the purpose to capture carbon dioxide before it releases into the atmosphere from human activities after being produced and then transport it to deep underground such as depleted coal mines.

Steal art like a pro


“Immature poets imitate; mature poets steal; bad poets deface what they take, and good poets make it into something better, or at least something different. The good poet welds his theft into a whole of feeling which is unique, utterly different from that from which it was torn.”

—T. S. Eliot

I just loved this quote. It just spoke out my innermost feelings about creation of art and being original. Originality is a farce. When I say that I mean it’s too much of a pressure on an artist especially a writer and prevents her from being a genius.

The words which you use to express yourself can be original as far as you’re concerned but what if by chance someone else has already used it. I can describe the sun as a Golden apple. But what if it has already been denoted by the same name by some other similar mindset on this earth. Does that make me less original and a plagiarist ?

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood and sorry I couldn’t travel both.. –Robert Frost

Frost says in his poem that even though the other road was embarked by many,  he took the one which is less traveled by which made the huge difference in his life.

I felt the same but the only difference being that there are too many roads I find that are worth traversing in today’s world but we gotta take the one that aligns with our core values. Not everyone wanta to start their own business venture. Some just want to be in their own world and not really do anything as they take immense pleasure in contemplating various approaches to life. They like studying and observing other people and learn from their mistakes and successes.

So if I had to rewrite the first two lines of The Road Not Taken, I would say I took none of the roads that lay on my path and I chose to stand still for a while before carving my own path that lead me nowhere substantially but made me happy.

Imagined self-image


You would have often heard this term known as the ‘looking glass’ within the context of ‘self’. It’s a magnifying glass, metaphorically , it enlarges your ‘self’ making you zoom in on your flaws and quirks and zoom out on your perks.

The self develops in three distinctive phases according to the Looking glass self theory by Charles Horton Cooley :

  • We imagine how we present ourselves to others.

  • We imagine how others evaluate us.

  • We develop some sort of feeling about ourselves based upon our perception of what we think others have of us.

The ‘self,’ then, emerges from one’s individual imagination of what we think others think of us. One critical element to this is that we may perceive someone’s impression of us incorrectly. We see ourselves through the eyes of other people, even to the extent of incorporating their views of us into our own self-concept.

Our perceptions are colored by what others think of us and how they form impressions about us. Very often, as a child you might have berated yourself for lack of popularity, simply because others saw you as just a random person than an influential peer.


An interaction doesn’t stop at the end of a conversation and after you bid goodbye to your friend/acquaintance/relative etc.. The actual interaction begins in the mind after the real one is over.
What was that I said to him ? Hope he didn’t take me wrong. Wish I hadn’t said it.. An endless array of questions over bygone rendezvous keep cropping up and you have no control.

How do you get over the looking glass self ? You can’t as no man is an island. You can’t give up interacting with others. Any amount of socialising will cause some interruptions in one’s self-perception. If someone says something against your beliefs, it causes some disturbance to your way of thinking or you feel threatened in an intellectual sense.

Yet you allow the looking glass self to help you better your sense of self rather than playing havoc with it. You don’t allow anybody’s opinions to diminish your sense of self but at the same time you use it strengthen your own beliefs especially when they form the ‘whole’ and core of you.

The opinions of others exist not to validate them and demean you. It’s just their way of thinking and not to put you down. Just because someone has a different approach towards your situation doesn’t mean you have to change yourself.
As long as you take others’ evaluation of you as a constructive feedback or just another way of seeing things, you won’t allow them to distort how you see yourself.

No doubt some level of discomfort will bubble inside you when someone imparts their knowledge onto you. Some just wanna show off their wittiness on you but that shouldn’t affect you or stop you from living your life. You can also imbibe someone else’s critique persona and try to project it as a more assertive repartee the next time someone contradicts your perceptions.

Assume a colleague of yours feels you’re too punctual to work, adhering too courteously to deadlines and you have got no life except work, since you’re always on time and leave no work unfinished. You feel this as more like a taunt rather than appreciation or awe.

The next time you engage in such a conversation with him, tell him how much work means to you and that other things are secondary.
Work enlivens you rather than partying with friends, letting hangover take you arriving late to the office.

Wayne Dyer says that what other people think of you is none of your business but sometimes if you make it none of your business, they go on and on. You gotta give back in a polite and ‘I seriously mean it’ vibe.

Other people dish out negative opinions which more or so reflect their own limiting beliefs about life. When you hear your friend saying, creativity has no value in a robotic world, it’s because maybe your pal isn’t that innovative and prefers machinated tasks. That doesn’t make him less worthy yet it’s his limitation that made him say such a thing in the first place.

You can develop the skill to recognize and ignore these. You don’t have to disagree with them on the spot if it doesn’t feel comfortable to do so. But put the mental blinkers on, and try visualizing how you’d go about creating a favourable outcome the next time when you feel intimidated by someone.

How do I live with FOMO ?



It’s been long I wrote something. Not because I didn’t have anything to write. But mainly coz I had loads to write and express. I felt as if it would be too much to unload everything all at once.

FOMO was curbing me from writing all these days.
The fear of missing out made me feel that if I write something on a certain topic, I’m missing out on other wonderful topics that could be instead blogged about..

So now that brings me to my blogpost of the day..
Never ever let the this new-age monster cripple your tendency to enjoy what you own and can witness in the moment.
FOMO syndrome stops you from living your life. It has a habit of ruling the moment. I might be laughing away to glory with my friends when all of a sudden a panic grips me. A weird unnameable panic that says ‘Hey, what are you doing productively in your life ? What makes you enjoy so much ?’
I have to shut the panic with something like “gimme a break. Im just enjoying myself. Buzz off!”
I always have a feeling that I’m missing out on all the goodies life has to offer because I’m too contented with what I have.

I buy several books unable to finish even one because my attention shifts and I end up reading nothing completely. But I enjoy that phase. It’s skimming through without satisfaction of having completed anything. If FOMO seems exciting for you, cool ! But if it prevents you from relishing what you have at hand, then gotta shove it off !

People say that life is always lived on the edge. I feel if you’re happy with your comfort zones then life need not be lived like tomorrow is your last day. What’s wrong in living as if you’re going to live forever ?
FOMO comes from the fact that life is short.
Why keep on feeding that fear by allowing it to control you and your decisions ?

Let go ! Just let the moment give you what it can. Don’t expect yourself to live multiple moments. Gotta accept that moment is ‘The One’. Be with it wholeheartedly.

“We live in a world of things, and our only connection with them is that we know how to manipulate or to consume them.”

FOMO tells you consume all that the world offers at one go and even when you’re happy with what you have.

What if you don’t want to live a certain experience? Just because the whole world does backpacking tours through Europe, you don’t have to if you don’t want to. You can’t manipulate an experience by living in it for sake. What’s the point in travelling through all the continents if that’s not what you wanted in the first place ? Who cares if people do incredible things on earth ? Do you want to ? Ask that to yourself.

Doing those things that FOMO wants you to accomplish or ticking off items on a checklist created by some pseudo adventurers isn’t gonna help you or make you feel out of this world. You would end up becoming more confused.

The basic idea is that when you inherently have fun doing something, go ahead. Don’t pursue things that you feel would bring fun into your life just coz you saw someone having loads of frolic doing them. You never know whether it’s just for posting on social networks, someone participated in an activity or just for the pure joy of it.


In a blogpost, Why Fear of Missing out is actually a good thing, also gives an instance wherein FOMO falls flat on your face..

“Your buddy Steve may look like he’s living the dream—going to concerts, traveling the world, taking Krav Maga classes—but that’s because you’re seeing his life’s highlight reel. Steve’s life is not all awesome all the time.”
-Patrick Allan, LifeHacker.com