I guess you are asking too much from life. Life is never unfair. Can you be fair to life ? Can you acknowledge it for all that it has given you rather bestowed on you ? It doesn’t ask you for anything in return for all that it has done for you except gratitude.
A little bit of gratitude won’t do you harm. Do not give in to the demands of your ego as to how life should be.
Life doesn’t owe you anything. Value it’s unconditional love.